I recall the day I learned my father was being deployed to Iraq. It was about a month before I started high school. I was at a Family Readiness Group (FRG) meeting, and the sweltering midnight sun of Fort Wainwright, Alaska baked the interior of the old Army classroom. Needless to say, my friends found out right after I did. I figured if they knew right away, they’d be able to help me through the entire deployment, from start to finish.
I was excited at that time. I knew full well of the risk of my dad being hurt or even killed, but it seemed so abstract and tucked away. My dad, having over 20 years in the Army, was a young, adventurous man with the age and wisdom of a 40 year old. To this day, I’ve never met an individual like him.
The next months flew by, starting high school, participating in cross country running, training for wrestling, and struggling to maintain an average grade in biology took my mind off of losing my dad for a year, until the fateful day in mid-January. It was just a few days before my birthday, and I sat in the back seat of our SUV, shivering from the frigid Alaskan air. My dad, dressed in his desert combat uniform (DCU), hugged my mom, brother, and I individually, and finally stepped off to the hangar. I was sure there was no other person in the world who felt the way I did at that moment. I was bleeding with pride, but shivering at the idea of living a year without a quarter of my family. Then I saw another pilot, and another. They walked with the same solemn stride–masculine in a patriarchal, almost old-fashioned sort of way. At that time, I realized that our family couldn’t make it through the deployment alone, neither could the rest of the battalion. Babies had just been born, kids were graduating, and newly wedded wives looked at the future in confusion. (more…)